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Hmmm . . .

What's wrong with me . . .

I'm having friendship problems with my girl guides..

Those arrogant freaks think they're so cool . . .

They actually don't want to be in guides cos its their 2nd choice . . .

Why can't they just let those who want to be in guides enjoy . . .

Now I'm just sitting here , all miserable talking to myself every night . . .

The worst part is that when i talk to myself . . . it actually seems like an actual conversation . . .

This was a habit since i was young like k2 . . .

On the outside it may seem like im joking around having the best time of my life . . . but it was all a lie so you wouldn't know that deep inside i was crying like a mad woman , bleeding like there was no end to the madness . . . it was as if my heart was tearing apart !!

So i'm sorry iLLa and eFFah . . . :'(

I think saying out my true confessions here is easier as i don't have to look at your face and get nervous or anything . . .

Once we were 100 % friends , I knew that there was no way for me to tell you this as i was scared that you won't like me anymore and things would go back like how it was on the first day of school . . . You don't know how i felt with you trashing me around . . . I almost never wanted to forgive you for that ever . . but that's over now . . .

My feelings were never important to anyone . . .people say that i speak nonsense, my ideas are nonsense . . I sound like a baby even when i'm very serious . . . Even when you try to comfort me you do that out of doing it cos people will think like what type of fren are eu if eu dont comfort ur fren hu is in need for moral support... ALA WADEVA LA IM BRAGGING SO MUCH LIKE DRAMA QUEEN ..

Effah -I never doubt you for even a second
Illa - You made my tears go away . . .

Anywaes i've been having a rough week lately . . . Haizz School reopening goin go watch movie with mum and maybe hanisah any frens wanna folo??


Nothing else to say here anymore . . .